This is the truth speaking. Death is coming. Whether it takes a hundred years or more for your body to decay, or you stumble and fall in the way of a bus tomorrow, it’s approaching. What do we know about death? It’s approaching and it’s inevitable. You are going to die, and you better get used to it, because that fact isn’t going away.
Most people find that idea very scary, but I’ve been friends with the concept of death ever since the time I had cancer. Given the fact that death is inevitable, you are faced with two options.
You can either be the type of person who clings to life, refusing to give it up. If you do, you’ll die a very undignified death, probably in bed, body in pain and mind full of regrets.
Or you can be the type of person who approaches life with a curious and honest attitude, sampling what this life has to offer and moving on when sated with each thing. If you live your life this way, you will probably choose the time of your death. It will be when you have had enough sex, enough drugs, enough food, enough adventures, enough knowledge and enough money. You will be at peace, completely sated with all of what life has to offer. Willing to give it up, just to see if there’s anything else on the menu. Right? Isn’t that the plan?
I want to be able to say “I took this rollercoaster ride and rode it the way I wanted to, I made it mine. Now I’m tired of it and I’ve done all the things I set out to do. What else is there?”
I think I can get there, as a fighter and as a writer. It’s important to have goals, but it’s more important to be aware of fact that the future is unpredictable. If you bet your house on the horse labeled future, then you might not win. You might get diagnosed with a rare, terminal illness next month, or you might get hit by a meteor five seconds from now. Bang, straight through the ceiling with a speed of five thousand kilometers per hour.
Can you say, right now, that you’re happy with everything? No? Then get to work, fatso! Me, I’m ready whenever. I don’t let my goals cloud my perspective. There’s no use pretending death isn’t real. It’s real, it’s closing in, and you don’t know how fast. So make the most of what you’ve got left, whether it’s five minutes or fifty years. But don’t do it out of a feeling of obligation to your goals. Goals change all the time. Do it because you’d like to improve on your experience of life. Do it because you feel like it. This is unintuitive, but you’ll appreciate it more if you’re ready and willing to give it up.
This post was written under the influence of three or four grams of dried cubensis mushrooms.